Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Ready for 2010 ???
I'm sitting here, listening to the breath of my oldest daughter Isabella, who's lying beside of me on the couch asleep. Oswaldo is playing games on the PS3 and the two youngest are sleeping in their beds. I just read my dear friend Christina's blog and decided, ya know...it's time I start doing this again. Expressing myself through my writing is something I truly enjoy and want to share with anyone that is willing to take the time to read/listen.
Like Christina, somedays I wonder...am I REALLY serving the Lord in the fullest capacity that He would have me to? Every day my character is challenged and my patience renewed as I serve my children/family and most recently, Oswaldo's 2nd cousin (a 3 year old Sofia).
My days at home this year have been good for the most part. I struggle with the challenge of meeting a variety of needs throughout the day. When in my classroom (everyone, all the kids) were of the same age and developmental levels. Here at home, I have a 4 year old (who should already be in Kinder because she enjoys academic challenges), a TESTY 2 year old and an 8 month old who's still nursing. Trying to balance "homework", teaching v/s repremanding all the time and feeding a baby can become a bit stressful at times. I find myself looking forward to a ride in the car where baby can sleep without being disturbed, 2 year old restrained and 4 year old quiet (she loves to talk)...I put in a movie and drive. WHEN REALLY I feel guilty that "we're in the car AGAIN" and I should really be holding them on my lap, reading them a book, etc...I don't think, as a mother, I can ever be completely satisfied and "feel" like I'm doing enough for my children.
THEN there's trying to find time to spend quality/uninterrupted time with my hubby. These days are few and far between it seems...but somehow, he still finds it in himself to love me just the same. We spoke last evening about this and each agreed that sooner than we want...these days will be over adn we'll want them back, so we are going to "suck it up." :) :) I LOVE HIM!
I have a good life. I love that my family and I serve the Lord...that we challenge each other's character, that we love one another and that we love our friends and family. God has taken 2 young college kids (from 2 totally different cultures/languages) and joined us together to preserve and build His kingdom and I KNOW that the "bad" days...really aren't that bad...they're just character building days and to those and to HIM I am truly thankful and blessed...until tomorrow :) ...
Like Christina, somedays I wonder...am I REALLY serving the Lord in the fullest capacity that He would have me to? Every day my character is challenged and my patience renewed as I serve my children/family and most recently, Oswaldo's 2nd cousin (a 3 year old Sofia).
My days at home this year have been good for the most part. I struggle with the challenge of meeting a variety of needs throughout the day. When in my classroom (everyone, all the kids) were of the same age and developmental levels. Here at home, I have a 4 year old (who should already be in Kinder because she enjoys academic challenges), a TESTY 2 year old and an 8 month old who's still nursing. Trying to balance "homework", teaching v/s repremanding all the time and feeding a baby can become a bit stressful at times. I find myself looking forward to a ride in the car where baby can sleep without being disturbed, 2 year old restrained and 4 year old quiet (she loves to talk)...I put in a movie and drive. WHEN REALLY I feel guilty that "we're in the car AGAIN" and I should really be holding them on my lap, reading them a book, etc...I don't think, as a mother, I can ever be completely satisfied and "feel" like I'm doing enough for my children.
THEN there's trying to find time to spend quality/uninterrupted time with my hubby. These days are few and far between it seems...but somehow, he still finds it in himself to love me just the same. We spoke last evening about this and each agreed that sooner than we want...these days will be over adn we'll want them back, so we are going to "suck it up." :) :) I LOVE HIM!
I have a good life. I love that my family and I serve the Lord...that we challenge each other's character, that we love one another and that we love our friends and family. God has taken 2 young college kids (from 2 totally different cultures/languages) and joined us together to preserve and build His kingdom and I KNOW that the "bad" days...really aren't that bad...they're just character building days and to those and to HIM I am truly thankful and blessed...until tomorrow :) ...
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